Did I mess up everything?

Hers' the deal. I am absolutly in love with this guy. We got involved together with our spouses at the same time. A 4some thing. None of us had ever done that before. Me and this guy feel in love and are still very much in love. My husband and I divorced and this other couple are just seperated. This guy has been trying to do the right thing for businesses and kids, we all have 2 kids. When the divorces started and even before then, this guy told me that my heart was safe in his hands and that he would never let me go. I let down every wall and every defense I had for this guy and trusted him completely. As the divorce started, this guy was loosing it because of how hard and painful this process was and pretty much shut me out of his life. He told me we had to do our own thing for a while but did not want me to see anyone else. This has been going on for 9 months now and he is still just seperated. He says that once they get the refinancing done on their businesses they are signing papers. He has kept me a secret so his wife will stay peaceful.





Anyways, I still trust this guy that what he says is true but this has been very difficult on me. I cant be a part of his life nore is he planning anything with me. I feel very vulnerable to a of of things right now and he has hurt me so many times throughout this last 9 months. He would take off for weeks at a time to go see his kids but his wife was there and would not talk to me the whole time. He said he felt guilty when he was with me sometimes because of the kids, and he would leave and go see his friends for a month or so.





I have tried to remain calm and try to support him but throughout this process I had kissed a couple guys and then I ended up going home with another guy. I dont know why I did, I think it was because I am very insecure about a lot of things right now. I told this guy about all of it and now he says he can t trust me, I cheated on him and he's done with me. I left a lot for this guy and I do feel as if I cheated on him. I feel horrible about it. But he thinks that he has been right throughout this whole thing. He know he hurt me but he said he was trying to do the right thing.





I guess my question is. Is did I mess it all up between me and this guy? Do you think he did? Is there any hope for us?Did I mess up everything?
this question should be in the single and dating category sectionDid I mess up everything?
yes and no